The last 8 weeks have gone by so quickly. Our girls are now officially two months old. During the last 8 weeks, we’ve fallen in love, bonded as a family, connected with old and new friends and experienced countless nights of minimal sleep. I would not trade this for the world.
A few friends have asked what has been most surprising, and then most joyful, and I must say all of it.
For some reason, I have had few notions of what it was going to be like, but quite a few fears I realized. On one hand accepting as we went, even from the beginning, what ever is and adjusting accordingly. From the day we found out we were having twins to the first appointment with our doctor, each day and experience is yet another page in the book.
On the other hand, I wondered quietly about breast feeding, how to balance being a mother and working, the impact of the twins on our older children, the best type of child care for us, how to find time for just my husband and myself.
I guess surprises me the most, is just how content I feel and yet how the longings of who I have been pull me in different directions. The pull of being a mom, and working.. Days spent hanging out with the girls, feeding, holding, changing pass so quickly and then moments of wanting and needing to use my mind. The pull of breastfeeding and feeling like that in itself is a full time task with twins..Knowing the benefits but also that I need to be rested, connected and present for the rest of our family and myself. Knowing as well, it is just hard.
I come to the place of trying to figure out how to make that all work and wanting so much to learn and talk to other people yet again. Wanting not to compare how we each do against each other, but to learn more about how much each of us, and our children are different. To know, that we are all facing the same challenges and that we can support each other and share our own stories. Loving time with friends that can honestly laugh and recollect these moments..
So yes, I guess there is a big surprise. Understanding now truly, that the community of women, mothers, stepmothers, women alike have so much to share with each other. The stories, the struggles, the memories, the recommendations, the honest moments are what allow us all to become. The storyteller and the recipient alike.
That truly listening and laughing along the way is what allows us to have the strength and confidence to make the best choices for us and our family. That I have a really strong desire to spend time with people that have this outlook in life. That through that real sense of community, I will have the best chance of helping all of our children and all of us, become our best selves.
Thank you to all of you who have shared, and lead me along the way…I truly would not be here with out you.
i am so thrilled to have discovered your space here and couldn't agree more on the 'sisterhood' that binds us as mothers and women. your musings are perfectly put and i've shared many of the same sentiments. i'm currently expecting #2 and seem to wear many hats as well. i first learned of 'peek' via a graphic design annual and just loved the simplicity and cleverness of your identity system. i also just made my first purchase from your darling shop. i'll surely visit often! be well and enjoy your new family.